When the going gets tough

Well readers I know it has been a while since my last posting. Back by popular demand, yes I am posting again. Tonight as you see is about , "When the going gets tough"  For me things have got tough, well I feel like crawling under a rock but that isn't feasablesince I have to work and pay bills. Last week my Shitty wonderful employer advised everyone that we had to submit to a blood test for a break on our health benefits. Sounded great, rather than paying $28 per a paycheck (weekly pay) we would only have to pay $8 per a check if we submitted our blood. Well background on me........needles and I do not get along, matter of fact when I get my blood drawn I pass out, yep everytime!!!!!!! They say it is not uncommon so with that said me to go to the lab to get it drawn is a HUGE thing. I managed one day to gather up the nerve to get it done, I met my co-worker and friend "Beaner" there, he offered moral support during this very difficult process. I did it and didn't even pass out!!!!!!!!! The blood lady was pretty good accept for the bruise she left on my arm......Well then days later the results were in of that blood test, Friday they came in to be exact, and through e-mail never the less.....I anxiously opened the site up and to my suprise.....I didn't quite pass all categories.......Yes mumbles has high glucose levels and tryglicerides. Researching this I found that these two go hand in hand....lower one and the other lowers. Well of course I went inot panic mode, yes thinking I am now dying and diabetic. Who wouldn't think like that when a normal reading is between 80-120 and mine is 160 and tryglicerides are suppose to be under 150 and I am 210,,,,,not good. Well "Crash" has always been my support mechanism and she keeps me calm and helps me to understand that if I just lose a few pounds the sugar will come back down. Yeah we have been down this road once before. Quite scared right now is what pushed me to write on my blog page, sounding board so to speak.Crash thinks I am over reacting but I do feel the effects of this condition, high glucose. I am so upset over this new diagnosis that I am making my self sick and having a hard time sleeping or concentrating. Well this leads to where we started when I said when the going gets tough, this said I have choices to make, fight it and hopefully beat it or fold up and let it win. I am a fighterand I will attempt to win this battle knowing I will never win the war!!!!!!! So readers thank you for reading this sounding board post and I will keep you updated on my progress or degress.

Good night readers